What it means?

So, here we are... again.. and all things that people say and the way that you talk to me, and your behavior.. it makes me lose my mind.. I don't know what to think, I don't know what to say, I don't know what to feel and i don't know how do i have to react... It seems like you don't realize the effect that you have on me, but you know!.. I have no time, in a couple of months i'll be going to another phase... something that I doubt that we'll be able to support.. I guess I'm just trying to find out what it means this little game that we are playing... I want to be sure that it means as much to you as it is for me ... and that we are not screwing all that we used to have...